I haven’t posted anything in several weeks. Again, this is still a new experience/experiment for me.
Spring has been busy and as we transition into Summer (my favorite season), I’m trying to soak it all in. This time of year seems so brief.
I was recently able to travel for the first time in a long time. It was wonderful. I got to see dear friends and family as well as some beautiful places. My friends’ mountain side cabin is simply magical. And seeing my family in Nashville felt like coming home. My heart was full.
Since returning home, lake season has begun. I’m blessed to have spent summers at a local lake since the beginning of my life and it continues to be my happy place. The place my soul feels most at peace.
This past weekend I faced a past heartbreak head on. I’m still deciding if it was the best choice but regardless….that bell can’t be un-rung. Nothing can change the past….and only I can decide how it impacts the future. I recognize that the person who hurt me values me and regrets the pain he caused, but I’m not sure I can set that aside. I know he wants me back in his life as the friend I always was but I’m not sure I’m capable of giving only that. Herein lies our problem historically.
I’ll leave it at that for now. As I’ve mentioned previously I’m a deep thinker and sensitive soul. I don’t know how to be any other way. (Believe me I wish I did).